August 10 Pearl

August 10

The thief’s purpose is to steal, kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. John 10:10

Many times in life when heart aches and sickness come our way we feel like God is not on our side. I don’t know how to explain or understand how God allows bad things to happen.

I know the devil’s purpose is to destroy us and The Lord’s is to give us an abundant life. I believe The Lord wants the best for me and the devil wants me to fail.

In spite of what the Lord may allow in my life, I have a deep conviction that he is watching out for me and is sovereign over all my circumstances. Now I may get frustrated, but I still know the truth.

I can’t find the verse that says, the Lord will restore the years the locusts have eaten, but I know its in the Bible.

I believe in my life The Lord has restored the many years the locusts have eaten. Most of my life I lived in fear, feeling helpless, vulnerable and wondering what was going to happen next?

These exact feelings allows me to have a successful career as a hospice nurse. I naturally know how it feels to be helpless and vulnerable. This is what patients and their families feel as they are going through the dying process.

If it took what I went through so I can help others who are feeling powerless then I’m glad I went through what I did.

My Pearl today is the joy of how the Lord can turn a bad thing into a good thing. You just have to wait awhile.

August 9 Pearl

August 9

I have this song running through my mind: I’m no longer a slave to fear I am a child of God.

Growing up I learned to let fear control my every move. I’m learning how to make decisions based on love not fear. Of course it all starts with feeling loved by the Lord and then letting that overflow into acceptance and love for others.

I wish I could say I do this perfectly, but of course half of the time I don’t even accept the love and acceptance for myself. It seems there is always something I could do better and then when someone is upset with me it really bothers me.

Why should it rock my world if others are upset with me? It seems I need others affirmation to much. Lord help me to not place any person’s acceptance over yours.

This is easy to say, but very hard to follow through.

Maybe I need to be a politician so I can get use to people not liking me. Hah. Many people don’t agree with politicians and so I need to learn how to be comfortable with knowing that others don’t agree with me. I need to be ok with people not liking me and being upset with me.

My Pearl is that I am no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God and I have nothing to fear. Thank you Jesus!

August 8 Pearl

August 8

The glory of the young is their strength; the gray hair of experience is the splendor of the old. Proverbs 20:29

I’ve always told my husband that gray hair makes a person look extinguished. Here it is in the Bible it does make a person look splendid!

I’ve seen many elderly people who have white or gray hair and I think it makes them look wise. Those who try to cover it up with color just don’t look right. The natural looks good. Just my opinion of course.

Today I saw a beautiful elderly woman who was tired of struggling with her disease process. I saw it in her eyes, yet a family member wanted her to continue with treatment so she reluctantly said yes.

Oh how it broke my heart. I guess hospice has gotten into me now. I remember when I had been a nurse for a year and I felt that nursing had gotten into me. I would see people and naturally look at their veins.

I would have to resist saying hey you have nice veins. I thought that may sound weird, but when your a nurse you notice things like that.

Now I can see the look in a persons eyes when they want one thing and family wants something else. I can see the tired in a persons eye and see when they are starting to slip away. Its a weary drained look.

My Pearl today is how The Lord has helped me learn my job.

August 7 Pearl

August 7

The Lord’s search light penetrates the human spirit, exposing every hidden motive. Proverbs 20: 27

This verse brings me comfort. Many times I feel misunderstood for why I do what I do. People can’t see my motives and so they fill in the blanks to explain why I do what I do.

The good news is that The Lord always knows my motives. In fact sometimes I don’t realize my motives until I pray and ask Him to show me. Its ok to find out in the presence of the Lord that I have wrong motives.

He is safe and will help me if I am willing to let Him search my heart and reveal all my hidden motives. Its not always safe to share motives with others because they may judge instead of help. The Lord always helps. He wants the best for us.

I was on call last night. You just never know who is going to need what in the middle of the night. Last night I was up all night with phone calls and visits to make. Sometimes I was still on the phone with one patient and I’d get another call or I hadn’t made the visit and got another call for another visit.

It was a challenge and it was fun until I hit the wall about 6 AM this morning. The words on the screen started to run together and I was having a hard time thinking.

My Pearl today is that I survived the night and I’m off today so I can rest and reboot. Help me Lord to reboot, your yoke is easy and your burden is light. I rest in you today.

August 6 Pearl

August 6

And just as each person is destined to die once and after that comes judgement, so also Christ was offered once for all time as a sacrifice to take away the sins of many people. He will come again, not to deal with our sins, but to bring salvation to all who are eagerly waiting for him. Hebrews 9:27-28

I had the privilege of supporting a family as they were grieving the loss of their father. They did a great job of honoring him at the end of his life. The first part of this verse was read, as it is at many funerals.

Today it jumped out at me. We don’t want to stop reading after the word judgment in the first verse because it leaves you with a feeling of fear.

If you keep reading you see the hope in the fact that he sacrificed so we could be free. When he comes again its going to be a joy for those of us who are eagerly waiting for Him.

Ever since I can remember I have loved funerals. I may just be sick? I don’t really know? But I think its deeper. I have vivid memories of attending funerals as a five year old and as a teenager.

Something deep inside of me comes alive at a funeral. That is an obvious paradox. However, I have always been strange.

My theory is that at a funeral I feel real, no one can pretend the person is still alive. There is something comforting about that. Many times growing up I would think one thing was reality and others would say no your just imagining things.

At a funeral there is no imagining, its final and no one can argue about the truth. I grew up feeling more comfortable in this real setting then at home where everyone seemed to be pretending.

My Pearl today is that God’s truth will stand no matter if people agree or disagree.

August 5 Pearl

August 5

My heart has heard you say, Come and talk with me. And my heart responds, Lord I am coming. Psalm 27:8

I had a lot of time to spend alone with My Lord on the three hour drive to and from holiday world this weekend. Just to be in His presence is peaceful.

I rode a roller coaster, The Thunderbird. It was so much fun. I was strapped in tight and my neck did not move. I told the person who strapped me in that it was my first time. She said sit back and relax. I thought yeah right relax?

My niece was all about the ride and was raising her arms during the ride. I really enjoyed the ride, but I couldn’t help but scream and the picture that was flashed of me looked like I was scared out of my mind.

I had on a shirt that said I am fearfully and wonderfully made. In the picture you can see the look on my face and just the word fear on my shirt. It sure matched my face.

My heart started racing as I walked up to the ride. The ride started moving and the lights started flashing and the smoke started billowing and then they shot us out on the track. My arms and legs were shaking, my heart was racing and yet I enjoyed it.

At first I closed my eyes and then I opened them and enjoyed the scenery. Learning how to give up total control is the only way to enjoy a roller coaster.

My Pearl today was the exhilaration of the roller coaster and the joy of hanging with the cousins .

August 4 Pearl

August 4

The one thing I ask of the Lord the thing I seek most is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, delighting in the Lord’s perfections and meditating in his Temple.

For he will conceal me there when troubles come; he will hide me in his sanctuary. He will place me out of reach on a high rock! Psalm 27: 4-5

I love these verses, when I read them I take a deep sigh of relief. How safe I am to be concealed by Him because I trust Him.

I’m going to be driving three hours to Holiday World today so I need his safety around my car. I’m meeting my cousins and my sister and we are camping and enjoying just being together.

I pray for protection for all of us as we are on rides tomorrow and sleeping in campers. I’m glad that he places me on a high rock out of the way of danger!

My Pearl today is that I’m safe to thrash around in the safety of His loving arms!