October 10 Pearl

October 10

And may the Lord make your love grow and overflow to each other and to everyone else, just as our love overflows toward you.

As a result Christ will make your hearts strong, blameless, and holy when you stand before God our Father on that day when our Lord Jesus comes with all those who belong to him. 1 Thessalonians 3:12-13

I often think of what the Lord will say to me when I take my last breath and stand before Him. Working with hospice patients I think of this every day, especially when patients are close to my age.

Families lives are changed forever when their loved one takes their last breath. Sometimes I feel guilty. Although I feel bad for them; I’m not feeling the grief they are feeling.

Families are crying and I’m not. I do feel empathetic, but I wonder if I come across as calloused if I’m not crying?

What I do is take some time to be quiet with families when they are crying and just be glad to be with them while they are grieving. I hope this comes across as loving and not calloused.

My Pearl today is that I have faith that the Lord will keep me strong, holy and blameless and it has nothing to do with me.


October 9 Pearl

October 9

He will not crush the weakest reed or put out a flickering candle. He will bring justice to all who have been wronged. Isaiah 42:3

For those of us who have been broken by the weight of sins done against us, this verse speaks deep into our hearts. The Lord sees what we have been through and he knows our weakness.

He will gently love us and show us that he knows our deepest darkest secrets. He knows when we sit down, when we stand up..he knows what we are thinking. AND he loves us the same!

The Lord will bring justice to all who have been wronged. It doesn’t seem like he brings justice in our timing or the way that we think it should be done. While our wounds are fresh we want to be vindicated now.

I use to joke, vindication is mine, Says, Wilma! Obviously its the Lord’s place to vindicate. He see’s the big picture and he knows that we all struggle. Not just those who have hurt us, but we hurt others as well.

Its hard for us to think about this part of the puzzle. We feel justified to be upset at others. But, how have we hurt others? It doesn’t seem as bad until we are on the receiving end of the pain.

My Pearl today is that if I’m the one hurt or hurting others, the Lord extends grace and mercy to all of us equally.

October 8 Pearl

October 8

Work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and the Master you are serving is Christ. Colossians 3:23-24

Work has always defined me. Its a strong part of my identity. I love the feeling of accomplishing something especially for others.

Who you work for and with has a powerful effect on your life and your sense of joy. If you work for a boss who is always on you and treats you like a commodity it effects how you feel about yourself.

The same is true when you have a boss who respects you and cares about you as a person and your not just a commodity in their eyes. You feel valued and important. When your coworkers all work together as one team, it produces a sense of support.

When your coworkers don’t help you, it leaves you feeling alone and possibly angry.

So the term “work” can make or break you if its your character or your finances. If you work for a corporation where you see people being laid off and your wondering are you going to be next. This has to be stressful!

I’ve been very blessed when it comes to my “work.” I’ve always worked for people who I felt respected me even in the restaurant world which was 18 years of my work. Five years of nursing, one year at church, 18 years of serving, and 3 years at woodworking.

I love to work as long as I feel I can accomplish something. When I was unable to work with my surgeries it was very difficult.

My Pearl is the joy of getting to work as if Jesus is your boss, not man.

October 7 Pearl

October 7

And the most important piece of clothing you must wear is love. Love is what binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. Colossians 3:14-15

Wearing love as we walk through life, what does that look like? I think it looks different every day, depending on the situation.

Today was a full day. We drove to see my niece’s new baby boy. Babies bring so much fresh new life to those around them. It was great to see him and the rest of my niece’s and nephews.

I saw a video today about a grandpa that goes into the hospital twice a week to hold the babies who’s parents can’t be there to hold them. He was holding them and loving on them, singing and snuggling with them.

The nurse reported that the babies grow faster and do better when someone holds them and loves on them. There is great power in love. We can overcome when we are loved and supported.

However, when we feel alone the opposite is true as well. We give up when we feel alone because its too much for us to think about and carry by ourselves.

There are many things that we can’t carry by ourselves. We need love and we need others to help us carry our burdens.

My pearl is the joy of getting to love others and share the love the Lord has given me.

October 6 Pearl

October 6

Jeremiah is an interesting read! Poor Jeremiah had to give everyone bad news and no one was listening to him. He was called to be a tester of people to see what they were made of. I’m sure he wasn’t very well liked.

The stork knows the time of her migration, as does the turtle dove, the swallow, and the crane. They all return at the proper time each year. But not my people! They do not know what the Lord requires of them. Jeremiah 8:7

This was Gods message to the people through Jeremiah. Animals have a keen sense of the natural. Animals are typically kind to their families, people aren’t always kind.

Animals have a natural instinct and know what to do and when to do it. People however seem to squash their natural instincts and demand their own path. We don’t care if its not natural we want what we want, when we want it.

Micah talks about what the Lord requires of us: to love mercy and to walk humbly with Him. It sounds so simple yet we fail miserably and try to creat our own unmarked terrain.

I just found out from my husband that we are going to start making our bed every morning. Oh my. I don’t like making my bed, I know it sounds bad. Not sure why I don’t like it. I guess I will walk humbly with my God and respect my husband’s desire to make the bed.

My Pearl is that the Lord will help me carry out whatever he requires of me, I need to surrender to His will and He will help me.

October 5 Pearl

October 5

Today is day 10 of my no sugar fast. I recognize when I’m excited or upset I want to celebrate with a snack. We walked through our house and it was exciting, I wanted to celebrate with French fries and a pazookie at BJ’s!

I resisted and it was hard! What do I do with all this pent up emotion? How crazy does that sound? Does eating food get rid of pent up emotion? No.

So why do I want to eat food when I’m excited and want to celebrate? I guess it makes me feel good? I believe endorphins are produced when we eat certain comfort foods like sugar.

I’m pretty sure there are no endorphins released when I eat broccoli, kale or spinach! I had a kale salad one night and it had no dressing because of course that has sugar and it was like eating grass. It was hard work and I felt like a cow eating her cud.

I’ve discovered when I’m busy and and I’m stressed about something I’m wanting to reach for a sugary snack. I find that interesting. I guess sugar appears to be a comfort for me and sometimes I feel a bit lonely without it.

My Pearl today is the growth that is created in me by saying no to a snickers bar.

October 4 Pearl

October 4

Wow, what a day! I felt pulled in all sorts of directions. We had our final walk through on our new house and yet I needed to be at work. Trying to do to many things at once becomes stressful.

I’m at a different hospital this week. I’m a bit discombobulated and feel a bit like a fish out of water. I’m not in my comfort zone would be a good way to describe it.

I find it interesting how our comfort zone really changes our response. The same things can happen within my comfort zone and I’m fine because I kind of know what to expect, but when your at a new hospital your not sure what to expect.

I don’t know how the resource nurses do their job. I don’t think you could pay me enough to be a resource nurse which means your being moved from place to place from floor to floor.

I like routine and structure. I perform the best when I have a routine. Everything has its place and everything is in its place then my mind can think. If I’m in a new environment I have to think twice before I do something to make sure its right.

Strange how doing the exact same job in a different location can throw a person off that much. And maybe its just me? Maybe its a control thing?

Growing up everything was always out of control, so now when I can have some sense of control it makes me feel better. It’s debatable if control is an illusion..

My pearl is that the Lord has given me a brain that can figure out how to make sense out of life even when things are not routine.