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About wilmalinhartrn

I grew up Amish and was not allowed to attend High School. I continued my education and have now graduated from Nursing school as a RN. I love the Lord and want to be his hands and feet while working with Hospice.

June 26 Pearl

June 26

The thought occurred to me today: I rarely ever overeat on veggies. I was eating my Brussels sprouts tonight and when I had two left I said to myself; I think I’m full.

I stopped eating my sprouts and reached for the nut mix with chocolate in it? Hmm didn’t I just say I was full? Oh I meant I was full of veggies, but had room for chocolate?!

Isn’t this an interesting phenomenon? I have a lot of willpower over Brussels sprouts and broccoli, but none over King size snickers bars, twizzlers and chips.

I guess its all in my head? I need to start viewing my snacks as Brussels sprouts and then I would never over eat.

Another thought occurred to me today, since we moved we do two things… We spend half of our time saying, “Honey do you know where my x, y, and z is?” Then we spend the other half of the time looking for x, y, and z.

My Pearl today is that I have work to do on my eating habits, but the Lord is with me to help me. As well as, when we are searching for our belongings.

June 25 Pearl

June 25

Its strange moving into a new house. Its surprising how an environment makes you feel different? I know this is true based on what restaurant I go to or where I work or if I’m at the beach or on a mountain top..

Obviously with these different environments there is an entirely different feeling that accompanies each one.

I feel unsure of who I am and who I am connected to? Must be what the dogs are feeling, as well. They are losing their sense of structure, routine and familiarity.

Of course its the people that make a home, not a building. However, there is something that is missing when you don’t have a place that is yours. I feel a bit lost, empty and detached.

I am still the same person and I still have the same people who are my friends and yet I feel so different just by moving to a different house. Its only 4.5 miles from our old house, but I feel miles away from our old life.

Once again I find it strange that a house can feel like your “life.” However I must admit it feels that way. Like the five years we lived there is a different life then we are about to live. Yet, nothing is changing except the structure in which we live.

I really find this an interesting phenomenon. I wonder how musicians make it? Most generally they have a place they call home and go home a couple of days at a time?

I’d probably never be a good traveler. I like familiarity and structure. I feel different in my comfy chair versus the bed or the couch or big mama (huge bean bag). My surroundings truly effect my mood and sense of self.

My Pearl today is that the Lord is with me and I know who I am in Him no matter where I live. I’m glad I have this truth as my foundation.

June 24 Pearl

June 24

What a day! We moved to our rental house today. We had quite a few friends who showed up to help us. It was such a relief. I’m so very grateful that we have friends who wanted to spend some time on a Saturday helping us move. I know its not a pleasant thing to do.

We had a 26 foot Uhaul and filled it all up! Yikes! How have we accumulated so much stuff? We had moved many smaller truck loads prior to today.

I’ve noticed every time I have a big job at hand I reach for my what I learned growing up Amish. We learned to work hard, stay focused and get the job done no matter what it takes.

On a day like today when we had a big project at hand, I was grateful for my heritage. I had resources in my mind to pull from when I needed some help.

I’m exhausted, but the bed is made and we have a place to sleep. Things are definitely not in place yet. However, everything is moved.

Tomorrow I get to go back to the house and clean it . I didn’t realize how dirty it was behind the furniture!

My Pearl today is the value of learning how to work hard and having friends who are willing to help you when you need it.

June 23 Pearl

June 23

Create in me a clean heart Oh God, renew a right spirit within me. This is a prayer and a song I love to sing over and over.

Today a miracle happened our windows were fixed! Its been 12 weeks since we ordered our window balances. Over and over again we have had issues. They would come out and have the wrong parts.

At first the parts were on back order and then they were suppose to be here the next day, yet when they arrived they were the wrong parts. My husband got frustrated, resulting in some inappropriate words and then inappropriate words were sent back to him by the business.

On and went from bad to worse to unbelievable.

Next miracle that happened today, our kitchen in our rental was fixed and put back together. Thank goodness!

It finally stopped raining and we sailed our ark over to the rental to take a couple of loads over. We have been able to move a lot which is going to make our move tomorrow much easier.

My son came home to help and some of his friends showed up to help. It was great to have him here along with his friends.

Overall it has been a long but successful day.

My Pearl today is the Lord showed up in many miracles and I think he will continue to do so.

June 22 Pearl

June 22

Be compassionate, just as your Father is compassionate. Luke 6:36

Its harder to be compassionate when I’m not feeling well. I’m hormonal and have a head cold/allergies. I feel off, not sure where my head is in space.

I had the privilege of being part of a hard conversation where compassion was needed. Although I was not feeling well, I did my best to empathize and to understand what the family members were going through.

Its hard to give families bad news. When all the choices we have to offer are not good it becomes very intense. I prayed a lot more than I spoke and I weighed my words carefully.

I’m tired and don’t feel good and this is the time when I need to rely on The Lord to help me by taking over my heart and my hands and feet. Left to myself I don’t have much to offer. Especially when I’m not feeling good and find myself in hard situations.

My Pearl today is the I have the Holy Spirit to rely on when I need Him.

June 21 Pearl

June 21

Is this the answer to a better life? But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. Galatians 5:16

If I can walk by the Spirit I won’t gratify the desires of my flesh? This would mean when I’m pmsing I might still respond appropriately? I might stop eating when I’m full instead of eating more because its just so good? I might be more kind to those who don’t believe as I do?

Each night I would like to lay my head on my pillow without any regrets. That to me would be the definition of true living. As long as I’m not narcissistic and think the problem is everyone except me..because then I wouldn’t have any regrets, but I should have them.

I really dislike going to the Dr. I have struggled with what appears to be allergies since March. Finally today my ear hurt so bad I was in tears. I knew it was time to do something. I don’t go to the Doctor unless I’m in tears.

The problem: fluid behind my ears, drainage in my throat. Cause: allergies. I’ve never had allergies what in the world? I guess this year the pollen count is much higher than it has been. Possibly due to the lack of cold temperatures this winter.

I feel a bit like a truck ran over me, but hey its going to be ok. I’m suppose to walk by the Spirit right? I’ve been interrupted ten times while trying to write this pearl, yet I’m suppose to be kind right? I’m walking by the Spirit? Yes, I’m trying.

My Pearl today is that I can be kind even when I feel like telling people to leave me alone. I believe that might be walking by the Spirit?

June 20 Pearl

June 20

I heard a phrase today: In the end of life its better to focus on living each day to the fullest not thinking about having a good death. Although a good death is desirable.

A good death is one where a person can let go when their body gives out. I have seen many people who’s mind is much stronger then their body. They fight for a long time and suffer much longer due to unresolved issues.

When this happens its really hard to watch! However, when families rally around the patient and everyone is loving its a beautiful thing to watch.

Even if we are not aware that we have a terminal illness, its good to think about living each day to the fullest.

Tonight I had the privilege of hearing my husband speak about where he has come from and where he is going. It was a great reminder of God’s grace. I see how God’s hand was upon my husband throughout his good and bad choices.

It was nice to see how far The Lord has brought him and also how far he has brought us as a married couple. Its beautiful when you can see someone go from bondage to really living.

My Pearl today is the joy and hope of second and third chances.