December 20 Pearl

December 20

Today’s attribute is El Roi which means The God who sees. I picked 139:7-12 as the verses:

I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to the heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me….

The main point being that we can’t go anywhere to get away from Gods presence. As long as I’m not hiding anything this should produce within me a sense of protection.

He is a God who see’s everything. He even knit us together in our mothers womb. He knows what each day will hold for us. At times the fact that he knew what kind of things I would go through has produced anger within.

As I mature in my relationship with The Lord I know that he has my best interest in mind so I don’t need to question Him. I need to question my own faith and trust in Him.

We are never alone because He is with us wherever we go. So why do we feel lonely? Loneliness can set in when emotional pain blocks our senses to spiritual things.

Sometimes we are lonelier being with people in the same room, but not feeling a connection. That is the type of loneliness I have felt. This is the worst kind because you can’t even feel safe enough to express your feelings.

If your truly alone physically then you can shout, cry and laugh and talk with The Lord without anyone judging your “crazy.”

I guess in my past I learned being alone was better than being with others who shamed me and would not and could not hear my heart.

When its just The Lord and I, its safe. I can feel whatever I want and I’m not in defense mode so its easier to hear what He may be saying to my spirit. Without this ability to walk alone with Him I’d be tucked away in an institution somewhere. Its very helpful to talk out my feelings with Him.

My Pearl is that I can be myself because the one who see’s everything is the only one that really matters..

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