Everyday I’m looking for pearls in the poop. Today I was sharing with a friend how when I was a child I would pretend to float to the ceiling and look down at myself.
After many years of therapy I realized this practice was a way of trying to get away from the pain and shame I was experiencing.
It wasn’t a good thing that I needed to escape the pain and shame. However, now that I’m older I feel I still have the ability to step back and see things from what I call an aerial view.
I practiced this ability through painful scenarios. Now I can use the same ability for good. At my job I am good at stepping out of the current situation and seeing what’s really important.
If you fly over your life in a plane and see it from a big picture perspective, what do you see? Things will look different if you imagine yourself on the other side of you.
My Pearl today is the joy of getting little nuggets that help me realize that God DOES actually work out all things for our good..in the end..you may not see it right now..but I promise HE is working behind the scenes!
I was driving down the road today and the radio was turned way down, I wasn’t aware that I was hearing the radio. I started singing a song by I think its rend collective, Oh Oh God forgive us…help us with our unbelief..
I thought to myself, why am I singing this song? I turned the radio up and this song was playing!! I was amazed! Although it was not loud enough for me to really hear it, I was picking up on it and singing the song.
So is this really a big deal, well I guess not? But here is what dawned on me. We are very susceptible to what we are listening to. We hear things and they affect us even when we think it has no affect at all.
What goes into our heads will come out of our mouth? Out of the mouth the heart speaks? What are we purposefully putting into our heads? If we are passively affected by songs and such, we will surely be affected by what we listen and watch on purpose.
My Pearl today is that we can choose what and who we are influenced by.
Watch out that no poisonous root of bitterness grows up to trouble you, corrupting many. Hebrews 12:15
We forgive to set a prisoner free..that prisoner is us! Our pastor challenged us with the definition of forgiving and why we forgive.
First the Lord died for all of our sins. He had to pay the same penalty for my gossiping and complaining as he did for the Hitlers of the world. Sin had to be paid for.
We forgive as the Lord has forgiven us, because bitterness and angry will steal your very soul. It will weigh you down to where you can’t breathe and will destroy your health.
Forgiveness does not mean reconciliation, instead it means the person who hurt you, owes you nothing! When I forgive those who hurt me, I cancel their debt and what they stole from me.
They don’t have to pay me back for what they took from me…if its my innocence, security, or protection… Jesus freely gave to me and that is all I can give to those who hurt me.
My Pearl today is that I get to forgive, which is a gift of peace for me.
Did you know that if you repeat the letter N, it relaxes your jaw muscles. The yoga instructors must have it wrong? I think they say mmmmmm…. ?
I learned this from my jaw Dr. I had to use it last night and today because now that I have the appliance that is supposed to help my ear pain, I’m actually having more shooting ear pain.
I’m taking a guess that as my jaw is trying to move its hurting more for the first while? My jaw is sore and the shooting ear pain brings tears to my eyes.
I’m using the N sound and hanging my mouth open to help the pain. It helps for awhile. I’m praying the pain will start subsiding.
He has identified us as his own by placing the Holy Spirit in our hearts as the first installment of everything he will give us. 2 Corinthians 1:22
Thank goodness we have the Holy Spirit so I can tolerate life when it becomes uncomfortable. I heard a story this weekend about a young college aged girl that hid out with other women in a very small bathroom while she heard her family and friends being murdered.
For 90 days this young girl hid out while 800,000 of her people were killed. She ended up visiting the man who was in charge of killing her family, while he was in prison. She forgave him!
I think if a young woman can survive 90 days in a small bathroom surely I can survive a little jaw pain. You think?
My Pearl today is that perspective changes EVERYTHING!
A prudent person foresees the danger ahead and takes precautions; the simpleton goes blindly on and suffers the consequences. True humility and fear of the Lord lead to riches, honor and long life. Proverbs 22:3-4.
The proverbs are full of wise principles that we can apply to our life every day. As I read these verses this morning I had to think of the process of building our house.
We started at a very reasonable price of the house and then as we added things the price began to climb to more than we had planned.
Then we have all the options of furniture and who wants to use old dishes in a new house? There are many things like this, we really want to put nice things in a new house?
If we aren’t careful we can go blindly forward and suffer the consequences. We want to look ahead and see what we need to spend and then try to narrow things down to what is within our budget.
It reminds me of another verse in the gospels that says, A foolish man doesn’t plan well and starts building a house but doesn’t have enough to finish. We would all agree that would not be smart.
If you don’t plan, you plan to fail? I think that sounds like a true statement. We need to humble ourselves underneath the mighty hand of God and ask him to guide our building process so we don’t get in over our heads.
My Pearl today is that The Holy Spirit is given to us so that we can be guided on how to live our lives. We have access to him 24/7, no waiting, no lines. All we need to do is stop and take time to talk to him. Reminds me of that song: Now let us have a little talk with Jesus..let us tell him all about our troubles..
Random thought of the day: While I was going through the drive through car wash I felt sorry for the workers. My arm would get tired to spray the cars with one hand and move my arm in a waving fashion with the other.
Listening to random thoughts may be amusing to sat the least. Try it some time.
I have a new appliance in my mouth to keep my jaw forward and stop the ear pain. My mouth is very sore and its hard to eat anything but soft foods.
I have been praying that I would have more self control when it comes to food. This appliance is one way to force me to eat slow and small bites.
Its strange how if I eat slower I get full quicker. I didn’t expect to get my prayers answered this way, but it may work to change my eating habits.
Growing up dinner was always tense and we ate fast to ignore what was happening around the table. Habits are hard to break.
I’m praying and hoping I can change my eating habits due to my jaw problems.
My Pearl is the benefit of jaw and ear pain is the possibility of changing my eating habits.
I can usually talk to people about dying without a problem. Today I had two different patients who really were not ready to hear that they had very little time left.
I discovered that looking into the eyes of someone who had no idea they are dying and telling them they don’t have much time left is very very hard.
I try to be in sync with my patients and when I am really really in sync I start to feel what they feel. Today I could feel what they were feeling and it was heavy.
I walked away with a heaviness instead of a feeling of doing a good job. Although I needed to talk to them and I was kind about their condition, it was harder to walk away and feel their pain.
You would think I’d be use to this feeling, but most of the time people have to come grips with their disease process before I enter into the picture. Not today.
Empathizing is good thing to do in order to be compassionate, but it sure can hurt.
I am not sure where the verse is off the top of my head and I’m too tired to look it up. But I know there is a verse that says we should help carry one another’s burdens. Empathizing is a good way to do that.
My Pearl today is that the Lord has given me this gift of being able to empathize and I’m really thankful for it! I’m glad I can feel and I’m not a psychopath.