Monthly Archives: July 2017

July 30 Pearl

July 30

Troubles multiply for those who chase after other gods. Ps. 16:4 Our pastor challenged us to think about what or who we worship? Definition of worship is something or someone that is the most important thing in your life.

If we make the Lord our number one thing we worship we will find safety and peace even when things go wrong. However if we chase after other gods or idols we will become like those things we chase: fake, empty, lifeless.

What idols do I have? Something I worship more than God? What would make me completely flip out if I didn’t have it in my life? My dogs? My son? My job? My cell phone? My husband?

Those are some things that come to mind.. my health? I would flip out if I couldn’t exercise!! I’m not sure if these things are idols or if they are simply crucial to my life and if they were taken away, I would still value the Lord above all of those things. I think?

When we see The Lord for who he really is..we can’t help but worship Him and Him alone. What keeps us from seeing Him as he really is? Pain in our lives? Our perspective is skewed from others who misrepresent Him?

Lets find out for ourselves by spending time with Him and we may just be overwhelmed with awe :

Revelation 1:17 When I saw him, I fell at his feet as if I were dead. But he laid his right hand on me and said, Don’t be afraid! I am the First and the Last!

My Pearl today is that I can keep learning to worship Him more and put less importance on other things.


July 29 Pearl

July 29

Tonight I had the privilege of seeing my friend get baptized, along with other people from the church. It always brings me to tears to see the celebration of people making a statement to give their lives to the Lord.

I feel like the devil loses and Jesus wins as people make a public declaration to live for Him. A mom and her two young sons were baptized, you could see the joy on her face as her children and her were all united with Christ.

Family that is what we become in Christ, the spiritual family. This gives me great joy to be a part of the spiritual family. It runs deeper than biological ties. My spiritual family will live with me forever.

The Lord is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. Psalm 145:8

Our pastor shared this verse tonight. Steadfast love means that when we screw up and break our side of the covenant, but He still keeps His promises. What kind of love is this that he would love us the same no matter what we do?

I know I can’t muster up this kind of love on my own.

My Pearl today is the joy of the big family the Lord gives us when we decide we want to belong to Him. We can support one another to do the right thing. Alone we may not be able to do the hard things in life.

July 28 Pearl

July 28

Oh, what a wonderful God we have! How great are his riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his methods!

For who can know what the Lord is thinking? Who knows enough to be his counselor? And who could ever give him so much that he would have to pay it back?

For everything comes from Him and everything exists by His power and is intended for His glory. To him be glory evermore. Amen. Romans 11:33-36

These verses are full of truth that speak directly to those times when we question our circumstances that are full of heartache.

If there is discord in our relationships or problems with finances, our health or our loved ones health, we question, Lord can you do something? Hello? Do you see me?

It is completely impossible to understand God’s ways in our painful circumstances. He is looking at us from an eternal big picture perspective, not from what we are going through in this very moment.

He is more concerned about how we respond to our problems and changing our character than he is in taking our problems away.

Most of the time we want instant gratification, we want to feel better now, we want our relationships to be better now. I must ask myself in each and every problem, Lord what do you want to change in me?

My Pearl today is that although we don’t understand the Lord’s way’s we can trust His heart towards us, he will not let us go. We can hang on to Him and grow through our pain.

July 27 Pearl

July 27

Today has been hard, I can only drink clear liquids and started my colon prep at five tonight. I feel slightly dizzy, weak and very hungry. This would be a good time to learn to say no to my stomach and focus on letting the Lord fill me.

It reminds me of the verse: Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him! Psalms 34:8

I need to take refuge in The Lord right now as I’m going through this colon prep, preparing for my colonoscopy tomorrow. Its real hard to focus right now, my brain is rather fuzzy.

I need to listen to some worship music and focus on the right things. It’s easy to get overwhelmed when you haven’t ate anything and don’t feel good.

My Pearl today is that at this time tomorrow I’ll be less full of crap then I am right now.

July 26 Pearl

July 26

Some nations boast of their armies and weapons, but we boast in the Lord our God. Psalm 20:7

I don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have my hope in the fact that The Lord has a reason for everything that he allows into my life. I know He is sovereign and wants my best and so come what may, I will be ok.

Today I had a epiphany. As I sat with a mother who’s child was dying. The child had struggled with substance abuse and was dying because of it.

I inquired from mother, when her child started her path of self destruction? She sadly informed me that when her daughter was a teenager she was physically abused.After that she couldn’t live with the pain and found solace in substances that removed her pain.

As I sat there I realized that could have been me! I’m rather upset right now because my body appears to be falling apart and no its not a good thing, but the alternative could have been much worse!

I was physically abused as a child and The Lord helped me walk through seven years of painful therapy to resolve those memories. Now my physical body is falling apart. I could become angry, but that would not produce any joy.

I can look at this scenario of this young woman who could never deal with her emotional pain and had to use substances. I could have been her. So what am I complaining about? I have nothing to complain about!

My Pearl today is that no matter what your going through The Lord can give us the right perspective that will help us keep the faith and trust Him.

July 25 Pearl

July 25

Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually! Ps 105:4 I need his strength every day, but right now I am most definitely in need.

I got a call from the Dr who was to do my ear surgery today. Mental note, anytime a Dr calls you after hours you know its NOT good news.

She said after looking at the Ct scan of my ear that she felt the surgery we had planned was not going to solve my problem. Ok?

She proceeded to tell me that the scan revealed I had severe arthritis in my left jaw joint and that she was 99 % sure that it was causing my ear pain. She cancelled my surgery for today and is referring me to a jaw doctor.

Wow, arthritis at age 42? I’ve had 5 herniated discs in my neck that bulged out to the left and then my left shoulder had a chunk of cartilage missing and now my left jaw?

I can’t help but wonder what is going on with my left side? There are a lot of questions running through my mind.

I’m kind of expecting that these issues are just going to keep coming up with my joints. I’m scared, angry and sad all at the same time. I feel like I’m old and falling apart.

I am bowing my had and asking the Lord to help me trust him with my health. I need to eat healthier to decrease the inflammatory response in my body. Lord help me to stay away from ice cream, snickers and all sorts of things I like.

My Pearl today is knowing that even when I don’t know what is up the road with my health, The Lord does and I can trust Him.

July 24 Pearl

July 24

And the Holy Spirit helps us in our distress. For we don’t even know what we should pray for, nor how we should pray. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groaning that cannot be expressed in words.

And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will. Romans 8:26-27

I absolutely love these verses and have and will rely on them again and again as life is full of things that don’t make sense.

I can’t count how many times in my life I have not known how to pray or explain what I’m feeling and I can rely on the Holy Spirit to show me. I can get on my knees and groan from deep within, without having words to explain.

Yet when I get up from my knees, I know deep within my soul that He understands and I don’t need to explain.

My Pearl today is the confident trust I can have rely on The Lord’s presence and nothing needs to be explained.