May 22 Pearl

May 22

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. James 1:2-3

We came out of one trial, into another. We are running into issues to find a place to rent for four months, most apartments or houses don’t do a 4 month lease. It doesn’t make sense to pay for 6 months, when we are only needing it for a shorter time period.

I’m sure just as the Lord provided a buyer for our home he will show us how to move everything twice and where we should live.

There are many options for moving. We could store everything in a pod or with another storage company. We could sell most of our things and just move smaller items.

If we never face challenges or trials we won’t build our spiritual faith/trust muscles. Just like going to the gym and working out, if I don’t use the weights I won’t get stronger. I can’t get a gym membership and think that is all I need to do to get stronger.

I have to put in the work and the time. Same with building a relationship with our Lord and building trust/faith. We make it through to the other side of trials and we are shocked we didn’t collapse in the process.

We realize the Lord is holding us up as we go through those fires.

My Pearl today is that The Lord will carry us and we can have joy no matter how good or bad the circumstances.

May 21 Pearl

May 21

I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. Philippians 4:11. I have a lot to learn about contentment. When I’m in an uncomfortable situation I am not content.

I want to learn that if I’m sad, happy, sick, in pain, on top of the world, have lots of money, have no money, great day at work, horrible day at work, pms, the IRS..whatever may come my way…I want to be steady Eddy all the way.

How can I be the same steady Willie if I’m happy, angry or sad? I think it has to come from a deeper source of truth. A truth that never changes. The Lord is the same yesterday, today and forever. He does not change like shifting sand or as the wind blows.

I change with my mood and hormones. The Lord never changes. If I have Him as my foundation and my source of strength and hope; I should be able to stay steady in the boat when the water is choppy.

My Pearl today is that Jesus is in the boat with me as I cruise through life. If the waves start crashing in, he will anchor me.

May 20 Pearl

May 20

For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Ephesians 2:10

We all have specific gifts, each one of us are a special edition. We have a unique engine with spark plugs that are sparked by different things.

Tonight’s sermon was about having purpose or being a drifter? Do I have a purpose in life? Do I have a plan and goals for the next years?

What is my five year plan? Ten year plan? Am I waiting to see what happens to me next or am I making plans and making them happen.

If I have a plan I say things such as..I must do..blank…my blank is I must learn to play the piano. We are in the process of selling our house and building a new house. My plan is to start taking piano lessons in October when we move into the new house.

I’ve been trying to motivate myself to play and teach myself. It has not worked for five years. Five years ago I asked for a keyboard for my graduation gift and I still have not played long enough to learn.

The good news is that if we haven’t made a plan we can change the course of our life today. We can choose a plan and goals and take action today. This is the joy of being human.

My Pearl today is that I don’t have to drift through life aimlessly, Jesus is my rudder who guides my ship in the sea of life.

May 19 Pearl

May 19

I’m embarrassed to say that I was very whiny with The Lord yesterday. We had three showings and no offers. I went to bed feeling like our house was NEVER going to sell. I had a pity party. No one is going to want our house, what is wrong with it? Might as well go eat worms..the usual pity party.

This morning my husbands texts me and says hey I need to talk to you we need to accept one of these offers! Oh my goodness!

We started our garage sale today, getting rid of things as if we had sold the house and before we sold anything out of the garage sale, we had two offers. Full price offers too.

Wow! I was overwhelmed and felt a little embarrassed that I had moaned so badly to the Lord last night. I felt like the Lord was looking at me with a gaze of I told you I’d take care of you! Like a parent who knowingly looks at their child with a look of you poor thing, you just don’t get it do you..

I do trust the Lord, but then when nothing seems to be happening its hard to keep the faith. However, that is really no faith at all. Faith comes when you can’t see the answer.

Faith shows the reality of what we hope for; it is the evidence of things we cannot see. Hebrews 11:1. The key here is the evidence of things we cannot see yet. So yesterday I should have been as confident as I am today, now that I can see the offer.

My Pearl is that the Lord knows my heart and still loves me even when I fail to have perfect faith.

May 18 Pearl

May 18

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55: 8-9

There are days when I look around this world and I think to myself, Lord that makes no sense. For example; women who would be great mothers can’t have children and yet those who are depositing their babies in a garbage can, get pregnant.

I struggle with this. I do not get it one bit. However, I’m not God and I’m not in control so I have no right to question the Almighty God.

I’m guessing that when I can see from The Lord’s perspective everything will make sense. The day I step into eternity, all things will become clear. I will no longer see through a glass dimly.

I read a story about an umpire who said, when talking about pitches, “Some of them are balls and some are strikes, but they aren’t anything until I call em’!” The point being he calls the shots.

I believe the same is true of The Lord, he calls the shots. If he says its a ball than it is so if he says its a strike than it is so. We may try to argue with our umpire, but it is all in vain. I’m sure The Lord has felt like throwing me out of the game many times with my arrogant claims.

He mercifully allows me to stay in the game even if I can’t see balls and strikes clearly.

My Pearl today is that the Lord is always up to something even when it appears he is doing nothing but calling strikes.

May 17 Pearl

May 17

A year ago today the varsity team played in rain the entire two hour game. They were smiling, why? Because they won by a good margin. They didn’t care if it was raining, because they were winning.

If they had been losing they would have been upset by the rain. Isn’t this true in other areas of life. If we just won the lottery we probably wouldn’t care if someone pulled out in front of us on the freeway. Why? Because hey you just won the lottery.

It’s amazing how our perception changes everything. Come Lord Jesus and give us Your perspective.

Today I was reminded that sometimes the truth is too much for a person to take in the moment. During these times its best not to force the issue.

I remember when my counselor was kind enough not to tell me the truth when he knew I wasn’t able to handle it yet. He didn’t lie to me, but he didn’t force me to see the truth about some people in my life because he knew it would be too painful for me.

He allowed the Lord to show me when I was ready. A year later when the Lord showed me the truth, he said, yes I knew this all along, but I could tell you weren’t ready to hear it. Wow, what self control that took on his part, to not say to me, look Wilma, get a grip.

How many times do we see truth clearly and we want the other person to see it, but if we force the issue, it will be met with resistance and will not benefit them.

The reason I was reminded of this today is because with some patients aren’t quite ready to face the reality that they are dying.

Although they are on hospice, they say things like, well I’m not ready to give up yet, I don’t want to starve to death..the list goes on.

A side note: I plan to eat nothing but King size snickers bars and salted Carmel ice cream, as I’m dying.

The point is that some people are not ready to face the truth even as they are unable to get out of bed because they are to weak and can’t catch their breath long enough to get to the side of the bed. Still some patients wonder, could something else have been done?

The Pearl today is that the Lord has given me wisdom to know when to not push the truth with patients and how to gently lead them along as they are ready.

May 16 Pearl

May 16

I laughed when I read this verse: Jonah was furious. He lost his temper. He yelled at God, God! I knew it-when I was back home, I knew this was going to happen!

That’s why I ran off to Tarshish! I knew you were sheer grace and mercy, not easily angered, rich in love, and ready at the drop of a hat to turn your plans for punishment into a program of forgiveness!

So, God, if you won’t kill them, kill me! I’m better off dead! This was from the message version of Jonah 4: 1-3.

Jonah was mad because he thought the people deserved punishment, he didn’t want to see them repent and be saved. He wanted to see them tortured.

Have you ever felt like this? I’m sure we have, not sure if I would tell God what I was thinking. I would probably keep these selfish thoughts to myself. Nevertheless Jonah got it all out and he let God have it.

I remember times when I’ve been angry with God, as ridiculous as that sounds. I would express my heart and cry out to Him. I felt He would draw closer to me when I would get angry.

Like my child, I want to know exactly what he is feeling if he is sad, mad or glad. The Lord is the same, he already knows what we are feeling, but he wants to hear it from us. He wants us to share our hearts with Him.

My Pearl today is the relief and freedom that comes from being honest with our Lord.